I understand that life has its ups and downs. But I don't think I fully understood that until last year. A lot has happened in my life, I have changed tremendously, and I like to think I've matured, as well.
There are a lot of people in this world that prefer to brave life alone and I honestly don't know how they do it, but I give them major props. I am not one of those people. As messed up as it may be, I rely on other people to help keep my happy. The relationships that I have are the most important things in my life.
I have gone through a lot for someone my age, I've dealt with loss, culture shock, rejection, and so much more and I would not be standing here if it wasn't for those people that help guide me through my every day life.
My mom is my hero. As much as we fight and get on each others nerves, she is my role model. She is the kindest person I know (to everyone BUT me) and she sets a great example for those around her. She is genuine, smart, filled with love, Godly, and beautiful. I look up to her in so many ways. I couldn't have been blessed with a better momma!
My second mom is also my hero, Sheralyn. This paragraph might end up being a novel... God knew what he was doing when he moved me to India and introduced me to this amazing woman. I guess because my dad isn't in the picture very much, I was blessed with two moms! (They aren't together though... thats a little weird.) Sher is someone whose opinion means the most to me. I never hesitate to ask for her advice. And I basically live at her house on the weekends, whether she's home or not! Sheralyn is THE perfect example for a mom. She has done an AMAZING job raising her kids, she is a spiritual mother to everyone, and she's helped me grow up a lot too. Sher is someone I could talk to all night about life. We both are obsessed with coffee, which is good for those late night chats that I keep her up all night. We have been through a lot of the same things in our lives and she is just so amazing and wonderful. I can't even describe her. The first day I walked into WOL (word of life(church)) I was greeted by Sher with a big hug. Well, I do not like hugs, but Sher's embrace felt like home. She is a light in this darkness and a light in my life. You can SEE God shine through her when she talks. I could never have asked for a greater second mom.
Sandra. Dang, I don't know where to start. She has only been in my life since October I think, and she has made me SUCH a better person. She is a BLESSING from God and Im so happy I was given the chance to know her! I can talk to her about anything and get an honest opinion and I can be open with her and not be judged. One of the realest, godliest teenagers I know!
Mary Megan is probably one of the first girls (should I say women since she is a married lady now?!) that I got close to. She walked with me hand in hand as I healed from my parents divorce and she is still walking with me from the other side of the world. She is one of the greatest accountability partners ever, she calls me out when I need it, and she cares about me more than I could possibly imagine. I miss her SO much but I am so blessed by her place in my life.
Olivya Madison Weiskopf. Childhood (and may I mention LIFELONG) best friend. I read a post recently ( http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2013/12/17-things-that-happen-when-youve-been-friends-with-someone-for-literally-ever/#vJcfqGIVjGOgvCPE.01 ) that made me miss her so much. So there's our friendship. Its pretty great. I can't wait to go home and spend all day with her doing nothing or watching marathons on TV. She's my other half. Its hard being that far away from your other half.
Dakota. I haven't been to close with him for long, but he is someone I can truly confide in. It takes a lot for me to open up to people, most of you know that, but some how, I find it easy to talk to him about anything. I lean on him a lot more than he'd like sometimes (oops) but I am so thankful for him. I couldn't have made it through these past couple of months without him. True friends are hard to find, but I have one for sure.
Now, I could list people forever, because there are a TON of you who I love and care about deeply, but honestly, Im thinking I've done enough explaining about people. LOL.
So, now.. The complicated part. School.
I've finally got permission to take my SAT at home with my mother, so graduation is a GO. Praise the Lord. Well, things can't ever be easy, can they? I want to go into detail here, but I probably shouldn't until I'm out of this school. SO, if you'd like more details, email me!
Lets see, what else is going on in my life.... I recently started learning how to play the piano and I have to say, I am super excited about it! I've made a lot of progress so far and I can't wait to see how far I can go!
We also have a trip at the end of March to go to THAILAND and Im so super excited!!!!! More adventure! One of the perks of living on this side of the planet!
So, I am trying to stay positive, even though school sometimes sucks a lot. I often get lectures from mom about how there's only X number of months left and soon Ill be done with high school and on to bigger and better things, so Im being pushed, which is good, considering Im lazy and giving up seems so tempting right now!
Not only will I be finished with high school in a fwew months, but my time in India will soon be coming to an end. The more I think about this, the sadder I get... I love these people SO much and leaving them is going to be so much harder than I could have ever imagined. My heart is now in two places, if only they were a little closer to each other. I am, of course, excited to be going back home to my friends and family, but I know these next couple of months will go quickly and I'll be saying goodbye to everyone here that is dear to me. Is reverse culture shock a thing? Maybe its called Second Home Withdraws. Im not sure about the name, but I know Im going to have it. Leaving India will be so bittersweet, but I am trying to make the most of the time I have left. I know Ill be back here someday. So, it is not goodbye, more like a see you soon.
There are a lot of people in this world that prefer to brave life alone and I honestly don't know how they do it, but I give them major props. I am not one of those people. As messed up as it may be, I rely on other people to help keep my happy. The relationships that I have are the most important things in my life.
I have gone through a lot for someone my age, I've dealt with loss, culture shock, rejection, and so much more and I would not be standing here if it wasn't for those people that help guide me through my every day life.
My mom is my hero. As much as we fight and get on each others nerves, she is my role model. She is the kindest person I know (to everyone BUT me) and she sets a great example for those around her. She is genuine, smart, filled with love, Godly, and beautiful. I look up to her in so many ways. I couldn't have been blessed with a better momma!
My second mom is also my hero, Sheralyn. This paragraph might end up being a novel... God knew what he was doing when he moved me to India and introduced me to this amazing woman. I guess because my dad isn't in the picture very much, I was blessed with two moms! (They aren't together though... thats a little weird.) Sher is someone whose opinion means the most to me. I never hesitate to ask for her advice. And I basically live at her house on the weekends, whether she's home or not! Sheralyn is THE perfect example for a mom. She has done an AMAZING job raising her kids, she is a spiritual mother to everyone, and she's helped me grow up a lot too. Sher is someone I could talk to all night about life. We both are obsessed with coffee, which is good for those late night chats that I keep her up all night. We have been through a lot of the same things in our lives and she is just so amazing and wonderful. I can't even describe her. The first day I walked into WOL (word of life(church)) I was greeted by Sher with a big hug. Well, I do not like hugs, but Sher's embrace felt like home. She is a light in this darkness and a light in my life. You can SEE God shine through her when she talks. I could never have asked for a greater second mom.
Sandra. Dang, I don't know where to start. She has only been in my life since October I think, and she has made me SUCH a better person. She is a BLESSING from God and Im so happy I was given the chance to know her! I can talk to her about anything and get an honest opinion and I can be open with her and not be judged. One of the realest, godliest teenagers I know!
Mary Megan is probably one of the first girls (should I say women since she is a married lady now?!) that I got close to. She walked with me hand in hand as I healed from my parents divorce and she is still walking with me from the other side of the world. She is one of the greatest accountability partners ever, she calls me out when I need it, and she cares about me more than I could possibly imagine. I miss her SO much but I am so blessed by her place in my life.
Olivya Madison Weiskopf. Childhood (and may I mention LIFELONG) best friend. I read a post recently ( http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2013/12/17-things-that-happen-when-youve-been-friends-with-someone-for-literally-ever/#vJcfqGIVjGOgvCPE.01 ) that made me miss her so much. So there's our friendship. Its pretty great. I can't wait to go home and spend all day with her doing nothing or watching marathons on TV. She's my other half. Its hard being that far away from your other half.
Dakota. I haven't been to close with him for long, but he is someone I can truly confide in. It takes a lot for me to open up to people, most of you know that, but some how, I find it easy to talk to him about anything. I lean on him a lot more than he'd like sometimes (oops) but I am so thankful for him. I couldn't have made it through these past couple of months without him. True friends are hard to find, but I have one for sure.
Now, I could list people forever, because there are a TON of you who I love and care about deeply, but honestly, Im thinking I've done enough explaining about people. LOL.
So, now.. The complicated part. School.
I've finally got permission to take my SAT at home with my mother, so graduation is a GO. Praise the Lord. Well, things can't ever be easy, can they? I want to go into detail here, but I probably shouldn't until I'm out of this school. SO, if you'd like more details, email me!
Lets see, what else is going on in my life.... I recently started learning how to play the piano and I have to say, I am super excited about it! I've made a lot of progress so far and I can't wait to see how far I can go!
We also have a trip at the end of March to go to THAILAND and Im so super excited!!!!! More adventure! One of the perks of living on this side of the planet!
So, I am trying to stay positive, even though school sometimes sucks a lot. I often get lectures from mom about how there's only X number of months left and soon Ill be done with high school and on to bigger and better things, so Im being pushed, which is good, considering Im lazy and giving up seems so tempting right now!
Not only will I be finished with high school in a fwew months, but my time in India will soon be coming to an end. The more I think about this, the sadder I get... I love these people SO much and leaving them is going to be so much harder than I could have ever imagined. My heart is now in two places, if only they were a little closer to each other. I am, of course, excited to be going back home to my friends and family, but I know these next couple of months will go quickly and I'll be saying goodbye to everyone here that is dear to me. Is reverse culture shock a thing? Maybe its called Second Home Withdraws. Im not sure about the name, but I know Im going to have it. Leaving India will be so bittersweet, but I am trying to make the most of the time I have left. I know Ill be back here someday. So, it is not goodbye, more like a see you soon.
Beautifully and sincerely written! You have a future as a travel writer!
ReplyDelete